In Memory… June 25, 2009

One of my dearest little wish kids passed away this morning. I was really touched by a story that was posted on their blog and felt I should pass it on to all of you. When moments like this happens it makes me appreciate the things and people that are of real value in my life. I know my life is crazy but I take these moments to stop and reflect. To be fair there really are only certain aspects of life that are important, I hope each of us takes a moment to take inventory of our lives and really appreciate all the simple lovely moments that truly make life complete.

All my love.

-kj

The Brave Little Soul

By: John Alessi

Not too long ago in Heaven, there was a little soul who took wonder in observing the world. She especially enjoyed the love she saw there, and often expressed this joy with God. One day, however, the little soul was sad, for on this day she saw suffering in the world. She approached God and sadly asked, “Why do bad things happen; why is there suffering in the world?” God paused for a moment and replied, “Little soul, do not be sad, for the suffering you see unlocks the love in people’s hearts.” The little soul was confused. “What do you mean?” she asked. God replied, “Have you not noticed the goodness and love that is the offspring of that suffering? Look at how people come together, drop their differences and show their love and compassion for those who suffer. All their other motivations disappear and they become motivated by love alone.” The little soul began to understand and listened attentively as God continued, “The suffering soul unlocks the love in people’s hearts much like the sun and the rain unlock the flower within the seed. I created everyone with endless love in their heart, but unfortunately most people keep it locked up and hardly share it with anyone. They are afraid to let their love shine freely, because they are afraid of being hurt. But a suffering soul unlocks that love. I tell you this – it is the greatest miracle of all. Many souls have bravely chosen to go into the world and suffer – to unlock this love – to create this miracle – for the good of all humanity.” Just then the little soul got a wonderful idea and could hardly contain herself. With her wings fluttering, bouncing up and down, the little soul excitedly replied, “I am brave; let me go! I would like to go into the world and suffer so that I can unlock the goodness and love in people’s hearts! I want to create that miracle!” God smiled and said, “You are a brave soul, I know, and thus I will grant your request. But even though you are very brave you will not be able to do this alone. I have known since the beginning of time that you would ask for this and so I have carefully selected many souls to care for you on your journey. Those souls will help you create your miracle; however they will also share in your suffering. Two of these souls are most special and will care for you, help you, and suffer along with you, far beyond the others. They have already chosen a name for you.” God and the brave little soul shared a smile, and then embraced. In parting, God said, “Do not forget little soul that I will be with you always. Although you have agreed to bear the pain, you will do so through my strength. And if the time should come when you feel that you have suffered enough, just say the word, think the thought, and you will be healed.” Thus, at that moment, the brave little soul was born into the world, and through her suffering and God’s strength, she unlocked the goodness and love in people’s hearts. For so many people dropped their differences and came together to show their love. Priorities became properly aligned. People gave from their hearts. Those that were always too busy found time. Many began new spiritual journeys – some regained lost faith – many came back to God. Parents hugged their children tighter. Friends and family grew closer. Old friends got together and new friendships were made. Distant family reunited, and every family spent more time together. Everyone prayed. Peace and love reigned. Lives changed forever. It was good. The world was a better place. The miracle had happened. God was pleased.

Life

So here I am, it’s currently one am and I’m blogging. I really do need to work on this blogging thing, even when I don’t blog I still seem to have followers. So I apologize to all my followers for not updating you on my life more frequently. 🙂

Today had nothing very special about it. It was just a day amassed with so many other days. I did enjoy it though. It was one of the first few days that I was able to enjoy the summer. The heat from the sun, the feel of the grass under my toes, the neighbor kids swinging in their hammock, it was a perfect summer day. I used today to kind of reflect on where I’m going with my life. I’m at this cross road and it’s been a little scary. The unknown, the abyss of life after graduation. I’ve been toying with many different ideas that I actually think I’m giving myself stress. Which for me, is never a pleasant thing, but than, is it ever, for anyone. 🙂 So for those of you who may be curious, here are some of my ideas, some of my “plans.”

1. Stay here in Orem. While that has appeal, my family is right here, I rarely get lost here anymore, I have my favorite grocery stores, etc, I feel the need for a new adventure in my life. But staying in Orem would not be a bad thing either.

2. Move to Salt Lake. This also has appeal. I do however, get lost frequently in Salt Lake, I don’t have a favorite grocery store, but it would be an adventure. What would I do in SL? Good question, but I’m sure it could be amazing.

3. Move to Portland. or maybe Seattle. or maybe Santa Barbra. or maybe Europe. or maybe I just don’t know. The world is apparently my oyster just waiting for me to come and grab it.

So what to do? I just don’t know. I thought at one point I figured it out but than it lost it’s appeal and I wanted something else. I’m sure I’ll figure it out and have decided just to put my fate in God’s hand’s and let Him decide. That, at least for the moment, seems like the easier route. In fact, one of my favorite quotes from my mission was one that stated, if you want to make God laugh, tell Him your plans. Well, God must be laughing up a storm. I’m sure he knows I’m doing my best and all I can ask is that I end up where I need to be. In the meantime, I will finish up my last semester and a half in school and see what life unfolds for me than. Until than I shall just enjoy the simplicity that is my summer.

While secretly wishing I was here…